and if not…

Thanks to everyone who supported me financially, in prayer, and who supported me with words of encouragement.

At this time, I will not be continuing on in pursuing ministry with Cadence and will therefore be leaving Colorado early. I agree completely with the reasons they gave me for saying no at this time and I’m thankful to have gone through the application process with an organization that values who they’re serving enough to be as thorough as they are in the interview and application process.

Though I have to admit it will be hard to move on, it’s been an incredible experience over these last few months, going through the whole application process, interviews, getting to come to Colorado and meeting some incredible people. I’ve learned so much about myself and about the Lord through this whole process. Even in the no, there was so much gained.

Prayers for a time of transition – for wisdom and the ability to continue to trust in the Lord and His guidance.

And also prayers for my fellow candidates, some moving into ministry with Cadence and some not – Caitlin, Joe, and their baby girl Olivia, and also Tamera and Sarah. These are all incredible people that I have been blessed to get to know and go through this process with over the past few days. I’m thankful for the laughter and fellowship and I’m so excited to see where God will take them!

God is good, even in the unexpected changes and directions He takes. Thankful for a God who goes before me, a God who is not surprised by this outcome. Thankful that His story for my life is better than I can imagine and that this is not a failure, but a redirection toward where He would have me go, even if it’s not where I imagined or how I imagined getting there. 

“And if not, He is still good.”


soli Deo gloria

Thank You for Your provision, Lord. You have brought me to this place and provided yet again, but I must confess that there still resides some fear. 

Fear that this might be a mistake.

Fear that I will fail. 

Fear that I’m not good enough.

But even as I write this, You speak Truth over my fear. 

You tell me that You have intentionally brought me to this place. from the first days of my life, You saw and knew this moment, the twists, and You knew that my path would take me here. It is not by mistake that I find myself here. 

You ask me what I think of as failure. What I may view as failure, in itself, is much more than that. If I “fail” then that means that was not where You would have me to go.

You show me all that I have learned and come to know during this whole process, the growth there has been simply in the “getting there;” there is so much there to be gained and learned from, failure or not. 

Failure, You tell me, might sting initially as unexpected things do, but it is You who wants what is best for me, redirecting my path, moving me toward what You would have me work toward, Your perfect plan for my life, where you would have me go or what you would have me do. You remind me of a professor’s wise words to “invest deeply and hold loosely;” to allow this outcome to be what would serve You and bring You glory above all else, and that no matter what ends up happening, I would leave space within the success or the failure for You to work and guide me, not becoming foolish enough to think that I can handle it or navigate it on my own. 

You tell me that on my own, I can do nothing. On my own, I am not good enough. You have brought me to this place of humble reliance on Your strength because where You have called me, I cannot do it without You. Everything inside me tells me that the easy thing to do would be to do something safer, and my comfort zone screams for a path that is more tame and something I could control. 

You tell me that You created me the way that I am, red hair, bookworm, and introverted as I am so that when You brought me to this place, I’d have no choice but to rely on Your strength and trust in Your provision. 

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. 

“God’s way is perfect. The Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all those who turn to Him for protection.” Psalm 18:30

This verse has been a comfort and solace to me since that first summer 3 years ago when I began to feel that nudge to pursue ministry. May it still be.

soli Deo gloria forever and ever 


introducing me + candidacy

Hi! Thanks for checking out my blog; it took a while to get it set up but I wanted to have a place where I could keep people updated with what’s going on with me!

The basics: born in raised in Washington, I love Jesus, reading, and soccer, went to college in Oregon to study music education and graduated with a degree in ministry and music (love it how the Lord does that); somewhere in there, I spent two summers up in beautiful Alaska as a camp counselor, one summer in eastern Washington at camp, went on two trips to Japan, two trips to Mexico, worked at some churches, led some worship, made some incredible friends, stumbled, struggled, and through it all, grew closer to the Lord.

Currently, I am home for the summer! I’m interning with the worship/youth leader at my home church and working part time at Ross, but there’s a lot of adventures on the horizon. Candidacy, leading worship at the camp I worked at last summer, and going to Alaska to celebrate the wedding of a dear friend.

The one coming up the quickest is candidacy in Colorado on July 9th with Cadence International! They are a mission organization that reaches out to military service men/women and their families across the world. I went to Japan twice during my time at college to serve the youth and the missionary team over there and I fell in love with it. In December, coming up on the end of my senior year of college, I decided to put in an application for a full-time missionary position with Cadence. Since that day in December, I have taken tests, filled out forms, completed interviews, and now I am on to the final step, which is Candidacy at Cadence’s headquarters in Colorado!

Depending on how things go there, and if Cadence decides that I’m a good fit for their ministry, I will get to come on to partner with them as a full-time missionary staff member.

Looking back, I can see God’s guidance and provision in leading me to this point and I’m so excited to see His hand move in this next chapter, post-college. God brought me to Corban, where I encountered Cadence for the first time, and I love what they do and I’m praying that I will be able to be a part of it!

Attending candidacy means raising support, both prayer and financial, in order for this to even happen. This includes hotel, food, training, and flights to Colorado. I have seen God provide in the past and I have faith that He will again.

I ask for your prayers as I prepare spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically for this coming candidacy. That I would be following the Lord’s leading and trusting Him no matter where He may guide me.

If you feel led to give to help me get to candidacy, there are several ways you can help!

1. You can do so online here at Cadence’s website, on my page in the directory.!biz/id/5919cca19865a1444a9e2af0

On the right hand side, underneath my picture, there is a block where you can enter in the amount you would like to donate. After you click “give” it will take you to a new page, where you can then input your payment information.

2.  You can send donations in to

Cadence International
Attn: Donor Services
PO Box 1268
Englewood, CO 80150

-Have checks payable to Cadence International.
-Do not include my name anywhere on it, so that you can receive a charitable tax
donation receipt.
-Enclose a copy of the donation slip (attached here: convert-jpg-to-pdf.net_2017-06-04_21-57-01) filled out or a note with the applicable information so that they know who the donation is directed toward.

Above all, I simply ask for prayer.

If you have any questions, feel free to contact me directly!

I’ll try to use this to keep you updated as to my journey with Cadence and ministry adventures, be it just through the summer or beyond!

Thank you everyone for your support, love, and prayer – this adventure would not be possible without you!